It’s ironic that I’m blogging because I really should be draining my fingers on the paper I have due tomorrow. Oh well, I guess. I find it pretty interesting, actually, the way minds work when they are procrastinating. The otherwise most mundane things suddenly become fascinating. I mean, I haven’t even been on Tumblr in weeks. Op! Paper’s due. I better exhaust every possible thing to do on the internet before writing it.
Ugh. well. I guess this is over. Maybe I’ll try to solve the Black Dahlia case next. Who knows- the possibilites are endless tonight!
heheh her name is jackie and she is wonderful
THANK YOU! <3 <3 <3
I worry that as each day passes another part of my brain dies. I am terrified. I feel like I am not using it at all. Not in reading, not in writing, not in speaking, not in living. I don’t know what I’m doing at all.
World. Internet. God.
This is for you. This is every inch of me, every centimeter of my dying soul- revealed here so publicly, so sporadically. I don’t know what compels my fingers to type these words. Maybe it’s because I don’t know how to get these words out of my mouth. When mouths don’t cooperate, the best place to turn is always the fingers. They don’t stutter. They don’t doubt. They don’t succumb to the cynical eyes around them. They run, jump, tumble across the keyboard, noting every thought that enters my spinning head. High. Me. Hi. I don’t know why I do the things that I do. I don’t know how I continue getting away with barely trying. I rely on pure talent, yet have none. I waste time, though I don’t have a single minute to spare. I wish I could answer all of your questions. I don’t know what you want from me. Every time I turn around there’s a different microphone inches away from my face, dripping with saliva for my response.
Why is it that as soon as I get on Tumblr my mood automatically switches to a weird/depressed/pensive state? I guess Lana playing in the background doesn’t help much.
The thing is that I’m not depressed! I am feeling so good about my life right now. I’m excited for the future. I love my new school and home. All the shit I had to do in high school to get here was worth it, let me tell you.
Anyway, I don’t have much to say. I just though I’d check in and look at some cool pictures. You know, the usual. :)